Rich Bitch

I did my own nails with these nail decals from Forever 21. Its from their collaboration line with graffiti artist and Trap DJ Alec Monopoly. His artwork take Pop icons like the Monopoly guy, Uncle Scrooge Mcduck and my favorite dude, Richie Rich$$$. I already copped the jacket and graphic t-shirt from this line too. Now my nails are ready for this weekend's Vegas Turnup!

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OVO Crew

Sadderday was easy to cope with, simply because those Jordan OVOs don't run in GS. Luckily I binged off of earcandy and dirty Sprite.

Skinny Pants and Some Vans

Werk Flow Mood: Vans Sk8-Hi MTE in Honey. I owned a pair of Tims which I cannot rock anymore cuz I love to skip, dance, and play in my shoes. So finding these kicks were heaven. Leather so soft tho! Now bring on the lumberjacks and boyfriend fit denims. Lil Wayne would be proud.

Music Therapy: Lil Wayne Right Above It -Call me Triple A, get my advance in advance, Amen. As the World spin and dance in my hands. Life is a beach, I'm just playing in the sand.

Music Therapy: The Pack Vans

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Many Clouds

I wore this over this past Labor Day weekend when visiting Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk. Mood was greedy...soak up every sunbeam, walk every inch of the boardwalk, ride every exciting ride (cuz those kiddie rides are lame), and breathe in the fresh sea escaping air. Also, getting more golden was so necessary cuz I don't wanna look white Yup in my white tee.

Graphic Clouds Tank from Ross
Faux Leather Dolphin Shorts from Forever 21 
Jordan XI Legend Blue 
Alexander Wang Large Sneakers Bag 

AMY

A few weeks ago when I saw Sam Smith perform "Tears Dry on Their Own" at Outside Lands, it reminded me of how many hours and on several drives I listened to "Back to Black". So over the weekend I was hella excited to watch "Amy", a moving heartbreaking insight of the singer's life. The accounts from family & friends reveal the tragedies and her non-sobering coping solutions when dealing with fishbowl fame and male disappointments & opportunists. She once kicked it with Mos Def and asked if he mind that she got high in which he responded, "Amy, I don't mind you getting high, but I mind you getting high". Its just too bad that shady males took advantage of Amy's desire for a loving father daughter and inconvenient love, all for money and affording a drug habit. Life can be a such a bitch. 

As she sang her songs during scenes, it showcased pieces of her poetry. When the lyrics flashed on the big screen, it re-stunned me as I heard her unique ability to pen love pains, "All I can ever be to you, is the darkness that we knew, and this regret I've got accustomed to".What a fucking gangsta. So pure and real the emotions she penned. Tony Bennett even mentioned that a real Jazz singer only likes to perform to a small crowd. And from understanding the experiences that Amy faced, that kind of intimate attention catches all the sighs, the woes, the glossy iris, and the sincere vocals. 

Being able to watch "Amy" also reminded me of the same kind of love I have for Aaliyah as August 25th marked her 14 year since her last breath. I LOVE Aaliyah. She was real, polite, humble, herself, and had unique talent. And Amy Winehouse embodied the same traits as an artist too. She didn't sell out her creativity for corporate sponsors, and kept it 100. Like when she was nominated for a Grammy for record of the year against Bey, Jay, RiRi and Justin. She totally clowned when Justin's What Goes Around...Comes Around was announced as a nominee as she mocked, "his record is really named what goes around. 

When the movie ended I thought about her possibilities. If only her father gave a shit about Amy as his daughter and really valued the love she desperately wanted from him. If only her man loved her like the queen she was to him and didn't use her as his financial pusha. And if only Tony Bennett were able to tell when he had the chance that "Amy, you're too important to be doing this stuff", then maybe she could've sang longer in a jazz club "just 'til these tears have dried". 

What Would Yeezus do?

Disclaimer: I don't wanna come across as a hater but at this moment in hip hop's life, Kanye is not my homie...I'm just very fond of twist on names, words, things and concepts so Yeezus is a mere referral to how I'd shout out my highest spiritual peer. 

Since I've referenced Yeezy, I'll also mention that "[I] came from the dirt, I emerged from it all without a stain from my shirt". My hell & back has and always will be the year 2003 when my god died. So as I drive down roads and contemplate which routes I shall pursue, those I love living in the sky ultimately become my guide. May trill by nature lead me to what I deserve which is best understood by The Outlawz: "you either ride with us or collide with us". 

Music Therapy: "They Don't Love You No More" by DJ Khaled- "Should be your favorite, now you're just hatin'. Shit starting to change, you want me to change, nah. They don't love you no more, they don't love you no more." 

11 years later & I still wonder if the World would've been better if you were here. I will forever hate October 19. 

Forever in our hearts, Sok Khak Ung. 

The Pursuit.

This year has been difficult for a lot of people I've been close too and causal with. However, one sad outcome has been the revelation of what it means to be down. I hope within time they will be able to move forward with strength, bravery and soul assurance. I've been there and had done a lot of spring cleaning which reminded me of these quotes, "Never regret the past, the only thing you should regret is the time you wasted with the wrong person" & "less friends, less bullshit. Keep your circle small". Real talk, as the exiters are usually people who aren't able to admit the truth when told all things real or are able to be a real person. And you may be the one showing them the door as a result of their fallacies, delusions, lies, exaggeration, shady characteristics, assumptions, and just plain crazy. These types of folks make u wanna go deaf so u don't have to listen to their irrationalities and selfish NPD conversations. I've dealt with plenty of them. Ughhh. 

Whack weaksauce people annoy me. Don't be Whack. Please. 

I've also learned this year a simple act of humanity. My BFF told me that people will believe whatever they will about you and there's nothing you can do to change that. This helped me see that sometimes you can inspire and prove points and other times you're just fucked. All good, as that's life and it reminds me that you can only just do YOU. 

As another year is ending that's worth reflection, there's always a bad with the good but I keeps my head up and focus on the great memories and people surrounding me. I've got such down ass bitches and wonderful familia. And a husband holds me like my favorite poetic expression, "If I were on the highest cliff on the highest riff, and you slipped off the side and clinched on to your life in my grip, I would never, ever, let you down." Happy New Year and keep the resolutions TRILL.